Wednesday, 29 February 2012

Day 220

Another rough start this morning.  My whole body is so sore today and I'm not sure if I can finish off this week going to the gym every day.  However, I am sure going to try!  I was awake at 5:30am and was headed out the door by 7 to give Jan a ride over to the LRT.  Once I returned home, I wasn't feeling very good so I headed back to bed for an hour.  I managed to get all 4 animals in the room with me and we really did manage to have a good nap.  I got ready to go, and left the house to go over to the gym at 11:30.  I still wasn't quite up to doing a workout, so I grabbed a coffee and stayed at Tim Horton's for the next hour.

At one point and time I didn't think I was actually go over to the gym.  I still wasn't feeling good, was really sore in the legs but thought, you know what?  I'm gonna do it.  So, I walked over at 12:30 and headed up to the ladies only room.  I was thinking maybe the eliptical wasn't really a good idea for me, I wasn't sure how my stomach was going to react, or my legs, so I decided that maybe I would just do the bike.

I got on the bike with every intention of leaving within half an hour but, my phone kept me busy with chatting and before I knew it, 38 min had gone by and I was still feeling pretty good.  So, I carried on and finished off an hour on the bike.  I burned 302 calories within the hour and when I tried to get up, I almost fell.  So once again, Krista overdid it at the gym again.  I am really hoping that it does snow tomorrow and winds up being pretty crappy weather.  If it is, I will be able to stay home and just relax even though Jeremy has stated that I am to be at the gym every day this week for my homework.

Tonight I will be doing my stretches, maybe a few ab crunches and that will just have to be good enough.  I don't have much more to say now, other than I sure hope the weigh in is good for all the pain that I am going through.  :)

Tuesday, 28 February 2012

Day 219

Ok so today was the ultimate lazy day for me.  However, I did have a fairly healthy breakfast, and a healthy supper so it all works out in the end.  I was up at 6:45am to give Jan a ride to the LRT and then the plan was to take the car to the gym and get a good workout in, but, of course, I came home and stayed here.  LOL

I gave sara a ride home, came home myself, had some supper, and then I was off once again to the gym.  I walked in the front door, waited in line to scan my card in, and lo and behold, I was greeted by Jeremy.  He asked me if I was training today, silly boy, and then told me to have a good workout lol.

I quickly changed my shoes and headed straight upstairs to the ladies only room.  I decided today that I would get on that eliptical and try my hardest to beat my sister-in-laws calorie burn of 300 calories in 30 min.  Even though I was successful and did go 30 min on that eliptical without stopping,  I didn't quite catch her.  I burned 273 calories in the 30 min but, I was still pretty proud of that.

When I got off of the eliptical, my calves were still pretty sore from yesterday's workout, so I opted to come home.  I had my coffee from the pit stop at McDonalds (I only had coffee) and started on my stretches. 

I laid on the mat, brought my hands above my head and reached as far as I could while pointing my toes the other direction.  I held it for 30 seconds and immediately went into ab crunches.  I did 25 of those and then took a quick rest.  I put my right foot on my left knee and brought my leg towards my chest, held for another 30 seconds, and then went straight into another 25 ab crunches.  I did the other side and repeated the ab crunches.  I then grabbed my right leg and brought it across my body into another stretch and then 25 more ab crunches.  Did the other side and you guessed it, another 25 ab crunches.  When I was finished with these I though, hmmm, maybe I will try the plank.

I rolled over and held the plank for 30 seconds, rested and tried it again.  I usually can only manage a few seconds the second time that I attempt to the plank because usually it really bothers my back.  I wound up doing it for another 33 seconds!  All in all, I'm pretty happy with the workout today.  I think I did a pretty good job and I can't wait for weigh in on Sunday.  I am hoping to get under that 200lb mark and I am pretty sure I can do it this week!  It would be really cool if the numbers show a -4 or -5 but I will be happy if I lose anything at all.  :)

Tomorrow is the next personal workout at the gym and maybe I may wind up doing a bit more when I get home.  So sorry it's up so late guys, but, at least it's up!  :)

Monday, 27 February 2012

Day 218 - Session

Well, today was 1 of my last 3 sessions with Jeremy.  We were both very chatty today and even though there was alot of talking going on, the session went by smoothly and was very effective.  I even got to learn a new exercise today!  I wound up expressing my concern to Jeremy about what I was going to do without him and he replied back with "I'm still going to follow up with you and be mad at you if you don't do your stretches every day and your cardio.  Don't you worry about that!"  I'm really going to miss the sessions with that boy!

However, I do have the confidence to carry the rest of this journey on my own and who knows?  Maybe once the next set of sessions are paid for, I may just purchase some more, only for the reason that I always have so much fun!

I started off on the treadmill for my warm up, and then when Jeremy came to get me, he commented that it looked like I had lost quite a bit of weight in the upper body.  I told him that yes, I had, and that there would be alot more to lose as well.  He was really excited to hear the enthusiasm in my voice and we walked over to one of the benches to start our workout.

I first had to do side lunges with a 10lb dumbell and reaching across my body to my toes with it and then bringing my legs together and raising the dumbell above my head 10 times.  Then he had me sit on the bench and putting my hands behind me on the bench, raise both feet off the floor and bring my legs to my chest to work the lower abs.  This is the new one that I was talking about and I really quite enjoyed it.  I had to do this 15 times and then repeat with the 10lb dumbell exercise.  More of the abs, and then with a 12.5 lb dumbell repeat both once more.

Once I finished with these, we went over to the TRX ropes and I had to do 20 rows, 15 assisted squats, and then going over to the stairs at the back wall 12 calf raises.  I repeated this two more times and then we made our way over towards the stairs.  Here I had to do the cross body stretch for the back on each arm and then we did one of the other pieces of equipment that you sit on the bench and pull the weights down towards you.  I did this 12 times with a 75lb weight and then I had to do the stairs 3 times.  Yay!  The stairs!  The guy really doesn't think I do enough stairs in a day!  LOL

Once I got back up the stairs I had to the the weights again, this time with 60lbs, 10 trunk rotations on each arm and the stairs 3 more times.  I repeated this set another time and then I was told to do a cool down.  I made my way over to the treadmill for a 3 min cool down and made my way off to Tim Horton's for my coffee and head home.

All in all it was a pretty good workout, and I am glad to be home, but I feel like I am not quite finished for the day.  I may have to do just a wee bit more while I am here.  I will have to see.  As I start at Epcor (finally) next Monday, I will not be able to do my sessions during the week anymore so Jeremy has agreed to do Saturdays for the next 2 weeks for me.  I thought this was really nice of him and so we have another session booked for this upcoming Saturday at 12pm and my homework for the rest of the week is to do cardio for an hour every day and of course, stretches every day as well.

Sunday, 26 February 2012

Day 217 - Weigh in

I thought that today would be a good day for a personal day.  A little bit of soul searching and personal enhancement is always beneficial to any kind of journey one may be venturing on.  I was planning on going to the gym today, I really was.  But I just wasn't feeling like it.  It seemed so guilty of me to be thinking of myself at the time but, I really didn't want to go out to the car, brush off that damn snow, and drive the slippery and snow filled streets to the gym.  I then thought, you know what, if I get into an accident, whether it is my fault or not, I still wouldn't be going to the gym.  I know that I am a careful driver and it's not that far to go, but, there still is the chance that something could happen.  And I refuse to do it.  So, I opted to stay home and do my stretches, ab crunches, the plank, and just reflect on what I have done so far in the last 7 months.

It's so amazing that I keep feeling better and better every day.  I feel like I can move more fluidly, I can stand on my feet better, and my back is starting to get better.  Partly yes this has to do with the recent job change.  And quite honestly, that is the biggest thing that amazes me.  I always saw myself as going up in the restaurant business, maybe getting to a district manager or something.  But I think deep down I was always afraid I just couldn't do it.  There is alot of responsibility there.  I am sure I will be successful in my new career choice.

A year ago today, I look back and see myself still working at McDonald's, getting home and walking around with a cane because I was in such severe pain I couldn't barely move with any assistance of any kind.  I was also taking pain killers to help with the pain, because it was so unbearable.

I was looking through many of the blogs from the beginning a couple of days ago.  I remember the first session that I had with Jeremy and how he had me on the treadmill on a 1.4 speed and 0 incline and I thought that I was going to die.  I couldn't breathe, my legs felt like they were going to fall off, and I couldn't let go of the handles for more than a second.  Today, I still have to hold onto the handles due to the fact that I lose my balance very easily, but, I can go a whole hour on that treadmill at speeds up to 3.7 and inclines up to 9 and sometimes 12.  What a vast improvement in the last 7 months.

Also a year ago, I would have never believed in myself to be able to accomplish what I have so far.  I am very proud of what I have done, and way happier with my life as a result of it.  I know that I still have a ways to go and I am going to continue on with this journey and hopefully fulfill many more dreams and goals that I can give to myself.

Today I woke up at 8:00 am and I took about 15 min to actually crawl out of bed.  I was so nice and cozy warm, and with the crappy weather outside, I knew that I just didn't want to be a part of it today.  However, I got up, went downstairs, and turned on the wii for the weigh in.  I was really hoping to get under 200 lbs this week, but, unfortunately, it didn't quite happen.  It was very close, as I weighed in at 201.5.  Next week I am going to be under the 200lb mark finally.  It has been a long time, many years since I have been at that weight and I am very anxious to get there.  At the rate I am going, I will be well under my goal for July which is very exciting, but yet, very scary as well.

I think that alot of the reason why I had put on the weight was sort of a wall that I put up so that I wouldn't let people get close to me.  If I put up walls, I would be able to keep people at a distance that I am comfortable with and they can't hurt me.  Now I am slowly starting to bring these walls down, because I think it's important for people to know who I am and how much I do care about the world and how dedicated I am to making a change in how I have chosen to live my life and contribute to every day situations.

So to date, I am very proud to say, that I have lost a total of 62.5 lbs, and I am loving what life has brought in my path so far.  It's been uphill and downhill for so long, but now the road is starting to straighten out for me and I am just going to keep travelling down it.  Once again, thank you to all of you that have shown your support and giving me the motivation to keep going.  All of your kind comments are always read, and even though I do not reply, I do take them to heart.  I love you all!

Saturday, 25 February 2012

Day 216

Today has been a pretty fantastic day so far!  I was awake at 8am, had my breakfast by nine and got ready to start the day.  I went downstairs, finally did the litterbox, helped Jan move all the christmas boxes downstairs (ya I know, it's February) and then jumped in the shower to get ready for the gym.  When I got out of the shower, I did up the few dishes in the sink, got my stretches done and headed out the door only to find that I had to shovel my way out of the driveway and into the car.

So, I grabbed the shovel and started removing the snow.  By the time I was done, I really didn't feel like going to the gym anymore, but I thought, I didn't spend all this time preparing for the gym not to go.  I jumped in the car, and on my way I went.

I figured I would try and give my feet a little bit of a rest today so I started off on the bike.  I alternated between various levels in 30 min and wound up burning 172 calories.  I think that's so far the best that I have done on the bike.  I still wasn't completely satisfied with my workout so I thought, maybe I will go on the treadmill for a little bit.  I started off at a 2.4 speed at a 6.5 incline and then went from there.  I wound up doing a 3.7 speed for 2 min near the end and hit my cool down.  I wound up burning 185 calories there in 23 min for a total of 357 calories burned.  All in all it was a pretty good workout and now that it is done, I am ready to just relax for the rest of the evening.  :)

Yesterday I didn't wind up going to the gym, however, I did do my stretches and I think I managed to do the plank for about 45 seconds, and about 50 ab crunches.  At least I did something yesterday.  Tomorrow I am hoping to get to the gym for an hour at least, maybe I will be there for a little bit longer, who's to say?  But for now, I am going to go and relax and spend the evening in peace.  :)

Thursday, 23 February 2012

Day 214

What a jam packed day today!  I went to bed early last night due to the fact that I was extremely tired and I woke up at 8am today.  I had a great sleep and when I got up, I felt like I was still sleeping.  So, it was a pretty slow start to the day, but I got going soon enough.  At 9am I decided that maybe I would get my stretches done.  I rolled out the yoga mat, did 4 of my normal stretches and then proceeded to do 20 ab crunches and 10 pushups while I watched Days of our lives.  Once that was over, I did a hamstring stretch, about 4 different weight lifts with the new dumbells I received from dad, and then 10 more pushups.

By this time, I figured that maybe I should get ready to go and I went upstairs to have my shower.  I had a quick bite to eat for lunch and then started walking to the gym by 12:30pm.  I got to the esso at 1, grabbed a coffee, and sat there and waited for about half an hour before I decided to get over to the gym and get the cardio done.  Once I got to the gym I got on the eliptical and did that for 11 min and burned 100 calories.  My legs are a bit sore from yesterdays workout so I figured that I would take it a little easier and decided to get on the bike.  I did that for 15 min, burned 80 calories and called it a day.  I still had to walk home yet.

I walked over to the esso, and met my friend Cassandra there for coffee.  We sat there until 3:15pm and then we made our way home.  I made it home by 4:15pm by the time we finished our yapping and I got ready to make supper.  I made pork chops, sweet potato, and steamed peas with a garlic flavoring and oh wow, was it amazing!  Now that I have had a little bit of time to sit down and relax, I was thinking that I was going to get some laundry done, but, I think I am just going to head to bed early again.  I am very tired from the day and being outside in the fresh air for an hour can really take a toll on someone!

Tomorrow I have plans to be up at 5:30 am to give Jan a ride to the LRT and then I plan to go to the gym shortly after to do a couple hours of a workout.  It should be another good day!  I am hoping to get under the 200lb mark by the weigh in, so here's hoping!  :)

Wednesday, 22 February 2012

Day 213 - Session

After 4 hours of sleep I am pretty surprised that I actually got up at 5:30am like I was supposed to.  I jumped out of bed, came downstairs and made blueberry panccakes for Jan and I for breakfast and then proceeded to get in the shower and get ready for the gym.  My session was originally supposed to be at 12 today but, I texted Jeremy last night to see if maybe we can do it a little earlier as I still have some things to do today and would like to get a good start on them.  I got to the Esso/Tim Horton's at 8:30am and settled down to have my coffee and read all of my documentation for Epcor and sign my papers.

At 9:30 I got my stuff gathered up to get ready to head over to the gym when I got a text from Jeremy asking if we could do our session at 11.  Apparently he wasn't feeling all that good so I said no problem and headed to the bank to get my direct deposit form.  From there, I went back to the gym and waited patiently by reading the rest of the documents for my session to start.  I headed upstairs and got on the treadmill for a 15 min warm up and then Jeremy came to get me.

We started off with a 10lb dumbell and with each arm, raising it above the head 12 times and then holding it sideways, doing squats and standing up while holding the dumbell also 12 times.  I had to repeat this and then I had to do squats without the bench while touching the dumbell to the floor and then while standing up raise it above my head 12 times on each arm.  I then had to do walking lunges across the gym and back and my left thigh kept getting a sharp pain in it every time I went into the lunge so we stopped and did a stretch to help it out and then did the lunges again. 

Once finished the lunges, I was sent down and up the stairs 2 times and then had to repeat.  The next time I had to do the stairs I was supposed to do it 3 times and then repeat all exercises one more time.  By the time I got up the stairs a third time Jeremy had called me over to the desk and asked if I would mind doing cardio for the rest of the workout.  I still had 20 min to go but, he wasn't feeling good.  I told him that it was no problem and he said that he would put the session back onto my account. 

He also asked me if I was going to lose another 40lbs by July and I said, I don't know, maybe.  He was like, if you do, I will give you a free session and I will buy you a lulu lemon shirt and a pair of pants.  LOL.  He's so funny.  Anyways, I finished off the session doing a 3 speed and a 9 incline on the treadmill for 15 min, did my cool down and I was on my way.  Just as I was putting my shoes on I happened to look down and noticed that my phone was ringing.  It was Epcor.  I answered and was notified that instead of coming to the south tower to drop off my documentation that I was able to scan it and send it in an email instead.  That works perfectly for me, so I said goodbye, grabbed my purse and was out the door.

I got home and went to grab my stuff out of the car when I realized that I was missing something.  My $100 pair of gym shoes were not in the car!  I must not have grabbed the bad when I left.  So I got back in the car, headed back to the gym and retrieved my shoes.  Now that I am home, I have a few things to do around the house here, one thing being that I need a nap.  I may just say to heck with it and get on with the other stuff and just go to bed earlier tonight.  I will be doing some stretches, ab crunches, the plank and also, doing some more weight lifting with the new dumbell set that my dad and his girlfriend gave me this weekend.  Maybe when that is done, I will maybe do some stairs as well considering the fact that I feel fairly energetic.  I may wind up even going back to the gym this evening, I haven't decided that far yet.  Tomorrow I am going to the gym in the morning once again, and hopefully staying for awhile.  I hear the eliptical calling me and also the bike and treadmill.  Might as well work out hard for the next 10 days while I am off!  :)

Monday, 20 February 2012

Day 221 - Weigh in

What a fantastic weekend!  Saturday morning I was up bright and early at 7 am, packed my things, and was headed out the door to Rocky Mountain House by 9am.  I got there at about 12 after stopping a few times, I had to stop at the car wash, walmart in Leduc, and then I stopped at Teddy Bear's restaurant for a bathroom break.

I got a text from Chris (dad's girlfriend) at about 11:30am saying that she was headed to the Petro Can for coffee with her mom, so when I got into town I went straight there and met them.  I am so happy that I got to go and see my dad, four years is way too long to go without seeing him.  I have decided that I am going to try and go there every couple of months if I can and visit.  Hopefully the next visit will be with my own car.

Chris and I went shopping at Zellers after coffee and I wound up buying a few pieces of clothing.  Finally I have something that actually fits and I can wear to Epcor when I start there on the 5th of March.  I am very excited and can't wait to be able to go and get some more clothes.

As dad was working all weekend, I really only got to see him on Saturday evening.  So, we dug out the Yahtzee sheets and when we play Yahtzee, it's 23 games at once and takes 2 hours to play.  Dad and I were neck and neck with the yahtzee's so it was so close that we would have to count the points to determine the winner.  We started another game and Chris and I were pretty close in points too, so another count is required to find out the winner on that one too.  We went to bed at 4am, which is not a regular thing for me.  Usually by 2 I am sleeping so I was pretty exhausted by the time I was finally able to go to bed.

Yesterday morning dad had to work again so I didn't even get to see him before I left but, I did wind up doing my stretches in the morning, packed up my stuff and by the time Chris and I headed up town to coffee, I was ready to go home.  I left Rocky at 2:30pm, or maybe it was 2:45pm.  I am not sure.  But anyways, I finally got home last night at 6:30pm.

This morning I was up at 9, had my breakfast, and headed out the door to the gym for 11:00am.  I got there and had to turn around and come back home.  Whoops, forgot my gym shoes.  Once I finally got back there it was 11:30am.  I did the treadmill for 5 min on a 2.4 speed for a warm up and my feet were pretty sore so I figured I would go and do the eliptical for a bit.  Both machines were occupied when I got into the ladies only room and so I opted for the bike.  I only did 25 min there and called it a day.  It was really busy today as most people are off for family day.  Before I go to work tonight, I will be doing my stretches and I will also be using the new dumbell set that Dad and Chris bought me for a little bit of strength training.  Tomorrow I will be heading to the gym in the morning, hopefully before 10 and then my next session is on Wednesday at 12 with Jeremy.

When I stepped on the scale this morning I was a little skeptical on what I would see.  I wasn't sure how the weekend was going to affect it but, as I stepped onto the scale and looked up to see the results, I was very pleased!  My weight is now at 203.5lbs, I have a total of a 60.5 lb loss!  :)  Yay!!!

Friday, 17 February 2012

Day 218

One thing that is driving me nuts today, is my damn phone!  I was awakened at 8 this morning by a text message.  Normally it wouldn't be so bad, but as I didn't get to bed until late, I really wasn't ready to get up this morning at that time.  I went back to sleep and was disturbed once again by a text message.  This time it was from Jeremy.  Grrr.  I really did not want to get up.  No sooner had I texted him and came downstairs and got on the phone with Jan, the phone rang on the other line.  It was Sara.  Wow, really?  I am popular today. 

I hung up from Sara, called Jan back, and then my cell phone started ringing.  It was Vanessa.  Hung up from her, went upstairs to brush my teeth, got in the shower, and my cell phone went off again.  Because I was in the shower, I wasn't able to answer it, and then the house phone started to ring.  Got out of the shower, checked my phone, it was Jan.  So, I called her back, and as I hung up with her, the cell rang again.  It was Judy from Esso.  So on and so on.  I got to the gym at 12, went upstairs, got on the treadmill and did a warm up for 5 min, then headed over to the ladies room.

I was on the eliptical for 5 min and my phone went off again.  This time it was Mike from Esso, telling me the same thing that Judy had told me.  I carried on for another 5 min, and Jeremy wound up catching me on the eliptical.  He wanted to talk to me, so I went to his office, had a seat, and talked with him for a few min.  I went back to the eliptical, finished off the interrupted 15 min and decided to do the bike.  No sooner had I been on the bike for 5 min that of course, the phone went off again.  At this point, I was completely discouraged, and decided that maybe it would be better to just come home.  I wasn't going to get a good workout in.  In total, I only did 30 min today, but, at least I showed up and tried.

Since leaving the gym, my phone has been going off non stop, and now that I am home, I am ok with that.  However, I do wish that it would stop soon!  :)

I am leaving for my dad's place to Rocky Mountain House in the morning.  Hopefully I get home at a decent time tonight from work so that I am able to get up fairly early and go.  I would love to be there at 10 or 10:30 at the latest.  Considering the fact that I won't be home until Sunday evening, there will be no weigh in until Monday before I go to work.  Have a great weekend everyone!  :)

Thursday, 16 February 2012

Day 217

This morning was another one of "those" days.  I woke up, didn't want to get out of bed, actually, I really didn't want to do anything at all.  However, I rolled out of bed, came downstairs, got my clothes into the wash for work, and went back upstairs to have my shower and get ready to go.

I made it to Tim Horton's at 12pm, walked through the doors and low and behold, there was Jeremy, sitting there eating his lunch.  I decided to bug him for a little bit and then I carried on to get my coffee and go outside to make a couple of calls.  Once my coffee was finished I carried on over to the gym and prepared myself for my workout.

As I walked into the change room, Francois was walking by and wanted to talk for a couple of min so we chatted and then I made my way upstairs.  I went into the ladies only room and decided that today was not a treadmill day.  I was tired of having the sore feet and trying to do what I can't do so I settled for the Eliptical.  I managed to do 20 min there, burning 175 calories, and thought maybe I will try some weight lifting today and give myself a little break there.  I put the weight up to 55lbs and did 10 forward pulls, and then reversed it and did 10 the other way.  I wasn't sure if I should do any more so I got on the bike and for every min I increased the tension by one until I was at a level 10.  I decreased it to a level 2 for a min and then back up to a 10.  I carried on for another 20 min and burned 125 calories on the bike.  So in 45 min I wound up doing a 300 calorie burn.  Not too bad.

I am in a pretty good mood today, hopefully tomorrow I can get to the gym earlier.  It would be nice.  I rather like doing my workout in the morning rather than the afternoon.  I plan on walking to work today, I have been lazy lately, not to mention the fact that the wind has been pretty chilly these last couple weeks.  But today it seems like it is very nice outside.  So I will walk today. 

Wednesday, 15 February 2012

Day 216

I don't know what was wrong with me today.  I had pleny of sleep last night, but, I still had no motivation and no drive to do anything.  I think because I have been working so hard to get to my goal and I am so close to acheiving it, I just want to relax and take it easy for a bit.

I was awake at 9:30am due to the phone ringing and I believe this is why I was so unmotivated.  I was having such a great sleep and I really didn't want to get up.  However, I got up, messed around until 10:30am and then got ready to go to the gym.  I made it to the Tim Horton's at 11:15 and wound up sitting and drinking my coffee for a half an hour.  Finally I figured that since I went all this way I might as well get my butt in gear and get my workout in.

I got to the gym at 12:15pm finally and as I was going up the stairs, Jeremy was on his way down.  We said hello and goodbye basically and I carried on my way to the treadmill.  Today was nothing special at all.  I did 25 min on the treadmill, on a 2.5 speed and 0 incline.  Once that 25 min was up, I stopped the machine and I was on my way.  I didn't even stay for a half an hour today.  I think I am already on days off mode as I am going to see my dad this weekend and I am just thinking that it would be so nice to just sit and relax for a couple of days without having to worry about going here, going there. 

I am quite excited to be going quite frankly, I haven't seen dad in a few years so, it's time I went to see him.  I love him so much and miss his quirky sense of humour.  Hopefully everything will be ok, that I arrive safely there and back again.  Which I am sure I will.  :)

Tomorrow I hope to get to the gym a little earlier, and this time I plan to do my full hour regardless of how I am feeling.  I think this Sunday's weigh in coming up will be a good one.  Oh wait, I guess weigh in will have to be done on Monday this time.  I won't be home until evening on Sunday and I usually weigh in the morning.  Oh well, we will just have to wait for results!  :)

Tuesday, 14 February 2012

Day 215

What a great day so far!  Last night I went to bed at 7pm and I slept so soundly that I don't think I even woke up once during the night.  I woke up at 5:30am feeling pretty refreshed and was out of bed at 6 to have my shower and get ready to go with Jan over to Esso.  I needed to fill the gas tank for her so that she would be able to get home from work tonight.  I grabbed a coffee, talked with Mike and Judy for a little bit, and then headed home to get my shoes for the gym.

I messed around for a little bit, called my cab, and when I got over to that area, got another coffee, sat at Tim Horton's for a half an hour and then figured I better get my butt over to the gym and quit procrastinating.  I finally reached the gym at 10:30am and as I walked through the doors I was greeted by both Jeremy and Francois.  Jeremy asked me if I had gotten my call yet, I said no, not yet, but hopefully soon.  I headed upstairs after changing my shoes and I wasn`t really feeling the treadmill today so I figured I would start off on the eliptical for a change.

I wound up only doing the eliptical for 5 min, burning 47 calories.  My legs are pretty sore today because of all of the lunges and stairs I did yesterday so I walked over to the treadmill and decided it was a safer thing for me to do.  I started out on a 4.5 incline and a 2.7 speed and after a min decided to increase the speed to a 2.9.  I did that for 5 min and then increased it to a 3 and bumped the incline up to a 6.5.  After another 5 min I lowered the incline back down to a 4.5 and increased the speed to a 3.2.  My last 2 min was at a 3.3 and I wound up burning 198 calories there.

I still wasn`t feeling completely satisfied so I headed back over to the Ladie`s only room and got on the bike.  I did that for 30 min alternating the tension from a level 4 to a level 6, 8, 10, and 12.  I wound up burning 180 calories here and then I finally felt satisfied.  I got off of the bike and almost fell because my legs were so sore and my feet weren`t much better.  I started walking a little more carefully and decided maybe it was a good time for me to head home. 

I got home and used the acuball on my feet, and decided to get some stretching done as well.  I figure this way I should be in top shape for work tonight.  I am feeling pretty good today, except of course for the feet and my back is a little bit tense.  But I am sure that I will be ok in no time.  That is it for this entry, I hope tomorrow is as successful as today!  :)

Monday, 13 February 2012

Day 214 - Session

This morning was a rough morning indeed.  I woke up at the desired time of 5:30am to give Jan a ride to the LRT.  I heard her get up, let the dogs outside, and then I heard her go back to bed.  I wound up falling back asleep and I got up at 7:30am, checked my email, and then carried on downstairs to have my breakfast before my session.

I got to my session and was headed up the stairs 5 min before it was supposed to start.  Jeremy told me to do a 3 min warm up and then we got started.  I first had to do reverse lunges 10 times on each leg. Then I had to do 10 arm lifts with 5 lb dumbells touching Jeremy's hands as he held them out.  I repeated this one more time and then I had to go down and up the stairs 2 times. 

Once back upstairs I had to do standing punches with the 5lb dumbells 12 times with each arm and then back to the reverse lunges.  Down and up the stairs 3 times and then it was the plank on the ball, which I am proud to say I did all by myself without Jeremy's help, 10 bicep curls, 10 tricep pulls and then down and up the stairs another 3 times.  I repeated the plank, bicep curls and tricep pulls and then we made our way over to the chin and dip assist machine.  I had to do 10 chin ups, 10 dips, rest, and repeat 2 more times.  I also did a hamstring stretch and then we did 2 stretches on the mats.

For my cooldown, I was told to go to timmie's for coffee and then I got my homework for the week.  I am to do 1 hour of cardio every day except for 2 days.  Our next session is next Wednesday at 12pm.  I am pretty excited to see what the next week brings for me! :)

Sunday, 12 February 2012

Day 213 - Weigh in

So far today has proven to be a pretty satisfactory day.  I was awake at 9:30am, had an egg omelette with yellow pepper, ham and tomato for breakfast, and headed to the gym for 12:30pm.  I got to the gym and started on the treadmill.  I always do the treadmill I know but, I find that I feel the need to try and get better and better on it before I move onto something else.  I started off on a 2.6 speed and a 4.5 incline and then 2 min in I increased it to 2.8.  Another 2 min went by and I bumped it up again to a 3.  I went up to a 3.2 another 2 min in and then up to a 3.4.  I was feeling pretty good so for 1 min I went up once more to a 3.5 and then up to a 3.6 for 5 min.  I slowly started to increased the incline up to a 6.5 and then decided that I better slow it down just a little bit.  I went down to a 3.2 and then increased the incline some more.  I wound up burning 300 calories in 35 min and I had to leave because my feet were really sore.  I feel that I did pretty good today and even though I wasn't there for my full hour like I used to be able to, it was still effective.

Even though the last few weeks have been pretty bad in regards to not being able to go to the gym, I have still been watching what I am eating and for this weeks weigh in I am quite surprised to see the numbers.  I am now down to 206.  I went down 3 lbs this week!  How exciting!  To date, I have lost a total of 58 lbs.  Only 2 more to go and I will have lost 60!  YIKES!  That's so exciting!  I can't wait until July, when I have reached my goal of 185, I will be going shopping huge!  I desperately need clothing!  I still have a ways to go, but I will get there and with this weigh in today, I have proven to myself that I can and will continue on.  I am more determined than ever now to finally finish what I have started and say goodbye to the unhealthy way of living that I was leading.

I still have not heard anything from Epcor, but I have a feeling that by Monday or Tuesday I should know for sure if I got the job.  My last day at McDonald's is on the 21st and I was pretty devastated the last few days but, I have come to terms with the fact that I just can't do something that hurts me.  I have accepted it and I will be embracing the next job with an open mind.

I have my session with Jeremy tomorrow morning at 10.  I am excited to go, but I am also nervous at the same time.  I am nervous because I don't know what he has in store for me and I may be a hurting unit afterwards.  But like he always says, "When you hurt, it's good!"  Silly guy.  It's only good if it doesn't hurt for 3 days buddy!  LOL  Hopefully the blog will be posted by afternoon.  Will have to see.  :)

Friday, 10 February 2012

Day 211

I actually made it up before 11am today.  I am quite proud of the fact that I was up at 9:30am and out the door headed to the gym by 11.  I got to the gym, avoided Jeremy successfully, and got onto the treadmill.  I did a 4.5 incline and a  2.6 speed for 15 min and then increased the speed to a 2.8 for another 5 min.  I then increased the speed once more to a 3.0 for 3 min and then finished the other 2 min at a 3.2.  I hit the cool down button and at the end of the 30 min I wound up burning 210 calories.  I figured that was pretty good and wiped my machine off.

I decided that I wanted to at least try the eliptical for a little bit and started heading over to the ladies only room where I was intercepted by Jeremy.  I really didn't want to see him or talk to him today because I am still very upset with the outcome of this whole job thing and although I am really happy to be hopefully going to Epcor and doing something that is good for me, I am still really upset at the fact that I am unable to do what I want to do.  Anyways, Jeremy asked me how I was doing and asked if I had gotten the final confirmation yet.  I told him that I wasn't really good today, and that no I didn't yet.  He said to keep my head held high basically and that we would talk on Monday because he wanted me to finish off my workout.

So I carried on to the eliptical and wound up doing a level 1 for 5 min to get used to it again and then bumped it up to a 6 for another 5 min.  I never went down under a 4.2 speed which is pretty good for me.  I jumped off and wound up burning 100 calories there.  So in total I burned 300 calories today in a 40 min workout which seemed to make me feel pretty good.  I will be going back to the gym tomorrow and Sunday as well and hopefully I will be able to stay a little bit longer.

I am doing my stretches pretty soon here before I have to go to work and as it is Friday, I will probably have to do them again when I get home.  One more week of excruciating pain, and then I can maybe get back to normal pain.  Sounds so weird when I write it like that and then read it but it is true.  Normal pain is definitely better than the lateral. 

Day 210

I did not go to the gym today, and I am feeling extremely guilty.  For the last 3 weeks I feel like I have accomplished nothing really and that I haven't been giving it my all.  I also feel like I am starting to slip and I am not sure why I am but, I do know that I cannot allow myself to do this anymore.

When I started my job with McDonalds I was very happy to finally be going back.  I know, McDonalds, you can do so much better than that.  At least that's what everyone keeps telling me all of these long years that I have worked for the company.  I love my job, I love the people I interact with, especially the staff.  I get new challenges every single time I go in and that is what intrigues me.

About a month ago, I started to notice that my feet were getting really bad.  I also noticed that I would stay home from the gym more, neglect my stretches more and now I just can't do it anymore.  I put in my notice at McDonald's last night.  I can't do this job physically and it really makes me feel like I am defeated.  I feel useless and I know that it is not my fault, that my body can't take standing on my feet for 8 hours a day and running around like a chicken with its head cut off.

My eating habits are starting to get really out of wack too.  It's not like before where I was eating way more than I should have been, but it is slipping as well.  And so, because of the back, feet and unhealthy eating habits, this is why I have decided to quit.  I have no choice.  I have to.  If I want to continue on my journey of a healthier lifestyle and if I want to get any better, I have to remove myself from the restaurant scene immediately.

Last week I applied for a job at Epcor.  I had a mini interview on the phone, and then went in this past Tuesday for an actual person to person interview.  I believe I did well, in fact, Sara works there and she gave me the heads up that my name is on the "yes" pile.  So, I handed in my notice to McDonalds.  My whole thought process was, even if it doesn't pan out for Epcor, I still have my job at Esso.  I called them before I started work and asked them if I could come back full time if I did not get the job at Epcor.  They said they will find something for me and not to worry about how I will be making my bills.

I have been on an emotional roller coaster today.  Like I said, I feel really bad for leaving.  I really did think that I was going to be ok and that I could do the job.  This frustrates me to no end because I really didn't want to quit.

However, once I got home from work, I did do my stretches.  The pain was almost unbearable as I haven't done any stretches since Monday and of course my feet are really bad right now as well.  I sure hope this Plantar Fasciatis will go away soon.  I don't need it on top of the scoliosis and I am really tired of almost falling when I get out of bed in the morning.

Tomorrow morning I hope to be up at 8 am so that I am able to go to the gym.  I really do wish that my feet will be ok because I just want to go and lose myself for a couple of hours.  I need some time to think, and I need some time to pick myself back up and get back on track.  Only I can do this and no amount of motivation and support can do that for me.  I have to do it on my own.  I have also been doing a lot of thinking about getting more sessions.  I was originally thinking that if I could afford to pay the money before, I can pay the money again.  After thinking about it, and wondering if I really can do this on my own, I have concluded that I am not going to purchase more.  I need to stand on my own two feet and give it my all.  I have come so far with a bit of help, but I will do the rest by myself.

Thursday, 9 February 2012

Day 209

Soon, soon I will have great news to share!  I hope so anyways.  Some people already know what is going on.  I am about to make yet another life change and I am so excited about it!  I am really hoping that everything works out the way I want it to. 

This morning, well, this afternoon rather, I got up at 10:30am.  The last couple of nights had been late ones and it looks like today is no different.  I was thinking maybe I could get out of work a little bit earlier, come home and do my stretching and then get to bed.  It sure doesn't look like it is going to happen that way.  I will however be doing my stretching because I know I can feel it in the back and if I don't do it, there will be a pretty good chance that I will not be able to work tomorrow.  So, I guess it has to be done.

Anyways, I woke up to find a text message from Sara.  She updated me on the status of her man, as he is pretty sick with pbeumonia, and then I jumped in the shower to get ready for the gym.  I was hoping to get an hour and a half in today, but, again, it didn't work out the way I had planned it.  I got to the gym at 1:30pm and found out that Jeremy was there.  I had sent him a text earlier to let him know the good news that Sara had given me, and didn't think he would be there at that time.  He usually takes a break and leaves for a couple of hours and then comes back until 8pm.  I guess that wasn't the case today.

I changed my shoes, locked up my stuff and went up to the treadmill.  I started off at a 2.6 speed and an incline of 4.5.  After 5 min, I increased the speed to a 2.8 and the incline up to a 6.5.  I went on for another 5 min and then increased the speed again to a 3 and raised the incline to a 9.  At the end of my 30 min workout I had finished off the last 5 min at a 3.2 speed and hit that cooldown button.  I am not sure how many calories I burned because Jeremy had come over to the treadmill and was talking to me when I started and I forgot to punch in my weight to track the calorie burn.

I got off of the treadmill after a half an hour and started to head downstairs.  I needed to be at the airport for 3:30pm to pick up Jan and I still had to come home and put my laundry in the dryer.  All in all, my spirits are pretty good today.  I had a good shift at work, and I am a little more than anxious to get to sleep so that I can get up at a decent time tomorrow morning to get to the gym.  I will have to walk tomorrow because I now have no car to drive.  :(  Oh well, it was nice while it lasted and maybe soon I will have my own once again.

Tomorrow's blog will be up much sooner that tonight.  I didn't have time to do it any earlier tham now but, at least it's up!  :)

Tuesday, 7 February 2012

Day 208

Blog time!  My favorite time of day!  I had a good day so far, this morning I had somewhere to be, a fairly important place to be in fact, for 9:15am.  I can't say anymore than that unfortunately but, I can say that it went well.  I hope to have some perfect news to share within the next week.  Once I was finished, I came home, let the dogs out, and proceeded to the gym.  Unfortunately, I didn't really have much time to get an hour long workout in today but, as I start work at 5 tomorrow, I can go to the gym and make up for lost time then. 

I did the treadmill today, of course.  I started off on a 2.6 speed, 3.5 incline and then 5 min in I increased the speed to a 2.8.  At the 12 min mark I then bumped up the incline to a 9 and increased the speed to a 3.  I was feeling really good and so I stepped it up a little bit for the next min.  I raised the speed to a 3.1 and then the following min up to a 3.2.  At 15 min I increased the incline to a 12 and carried on for 5 min.  I hit the cooldown button and finished off the last 10 min at a slower speed.  I wound up burning 210 calories which is surprisingly good for me.  Considering the fact that I had not been in the gym for a week and also considering the fact that I was sick as well. 

I wound up starting to cough however, and I decided that I should probably stop for today.  I don't want to reverse what the antibiotics are doing and figured that I should take it a little easy for the first couple days back.  I saw Francios today as well.  (Nikki's former trainer)  He asked me where I had been, that he was concerned and I told him that I had been sick with bronchitis.  He said that he was glad to see me back and quite honestly, I am sooooo glad to be back as well!  I missed it so much and hopefully tomorrow I will be able to get on that eliptical and burn 300 calories like my awesome sister in law!  I know I won't be able to do it in 30 min like her though but I'm sure gonna try!

I have to work tonight so, when I have finished work I plan to come straight home and do my stretching that I need to do and then hit the pillow.  I really want to be able to get up early again tomorrow and have an amazingly productive day!

Yesterday I went to my grandmother's house.  My New Year's resolution has finally been started.  We had a nice chat, just the two of us.  I shed some tears, will not deny it, but this talk needed to be done.  I love my grandmother so much and am so happy to have gotten some things off of my mind.  My healing process has finally begun.  Next up, my dad.  I hope everyone is as understanding and will see why I need to do this.  I cannot even hope to keep this weight off if I am not happy and cannot possibly be truly happy with myself as a person if I don't deal with the issues that led me to this place to begin with. :)

Please keep in mind that this blog is a reminder to me about this whole process and that anything I disclose here is to help me gain the knowledge to conquer my obesity.  Not only to conquer it, but to help me become the best I can possibly be and to also be more of a positive person instead of negative.  I continue to thank all who is following this process with me and giving me the support and motivation to keep going.  This is by far, the hardest thing I have ever done in my life and I feel like a yoyo most days, but I know once this process is complete, it will be an amazing life indeed!  :)

Monday, 6 February 2012

Day 207 - Session

It was a good morning so far this morning.  I was awake at 6:30am to give Jan a ride to the airport.  Once finished there, I continued home and stopped for a coffee on the way and when I got there I had my breakfast and got ready to go to the gym. 

I got there at 9:30am, had a quick smoke, and went inside to do my warm up.  I actually zoned out for a little bit so when Jeremy came up behind me, he startled me a little bit and then laughed at me.  Needless to say we got started right away.

First we went over to the TRX ropes where I had to do about 15 assisted squats, and then I had to do side lateral lunges across the gym and back.  I repeated these two and then he had me do 10 step ups with a 5lb dumbell raising it above my head from the shoulder on each arm and then off to do my favorite excersise (not really) going down and up the stairs 2 times.  I repeated the step ups and the stairs and then I was able to have a little break.

From here he had me do 10 pushups, and then about 15 ab crunches and then I had to do the crossbody stretch because my back was hurting pretty bad.  Then we went over to the hamstring machine and did a few leg stretches and glute stretches there.  Then went back to the mat for 12 more pushups and 15 ab crunches.  I had to go down and up the stairs 2 times again and then we did 10 chin up and dip assists, the stairs and then I repeated them again.  When I got back upstairs Jeremy told me he wanted to see me in the gym every day this week, to do an hour of cardio every day and once again stretches.  No break in between.  I then did my cooldown and walked over to the Esso to get my beloved Timmie's coffee!

I am feeling pretty good right now, I am at my Grandmother's house for a visit, and if I continue to feel good I just may have to go back to the gym for another workout tonight.  Hopefully all goes well!  :)

My next session is again next Monday at 10am and I really hope that he pushes me hard again.  I look forward to it!  :)

Sunday, 5 February 2012

Day 206 - Weigh in

It has been quite the rough time these last 2 weeks.  I have been so sick and I know I haven't been well enough to go to the gym at all in over a week.  I am pretty upset about this fact along with a few other things but I will get to that in a little bit.  It seems that I can take 2 steps forward all the time in getting my life back on track and then always something happens to knock me 10 steps back.  I was hoping to get myself a car within the next couple of months but, now it looks like it's not going to happen.  I know my financial problems and issues are all my fault and I am trying so hard to clean up the mess.  It just doesn't seem to be happening as I wish it would.

I went to the doctor last week finally because I was so sick and found out that I had bronchitis.  So I went over to get my perscription filled and i wound up spending a total of 85 dollars there.  I guess that's the price you pay for being sick.  Ha ha ha

On Friday I was hoping to get to the gym but, unfortunately my feet were so sore from working the night before that I wasn't able to go.  It really does suck to be in so much pain all the time but, I do think it is getting a little better.  Not much, but a little.  On Saturday I hoped to go to the gym as well but, again it didn't work out the way I wanted.  Jan, Sara and I wound up going to the farmer's market downtown and then we drove sara home, stopped in at Reitman's and Pennington's and by the time we got home I had 15 min before I had to leave for work.  So no stretching and no gym.  Grrrr.

Today I work at Esso at 4 so if I feel up to it and can get moving on my feet today, I am going to try my best to get over there.  I sure do miss that place!

Anyhow, I wound up closing my door to my bedroom last night without noticing that Charlie was in there with me so at 9am she woke me up and was wanting to go out to have something to eat.  We snuggled for about half an hour and then I got up.  I came downstairs, talked to Jan for a few min and then carried on downstairs to get the weigh in done.  I was so scared that I had gained weight, I almost delayed the weigh in for a week.  However, if I did that I wouldn't know for sure what happened while being sick and all.  I have been checking it for the last week and it has been up and down drastically.  So I figured I should just keep the true weigh in.  It looks like I lost 1lb again which is great.  A pound lost is another pound closer to my goal.  I am now at 209lbs and my total loss to date is 55lbs!  Yay!

Tomorrow I have a session with Jeremy at 10am and then I will be heading out to my Grandma's house for a little visit.  Actually, more than most likely I will probably wind up being there all day.  Who knows?  Anyways, I will be sure to make a post while I am out there with her. :)