I am feeling a little discouraged today. I have been not so motivated in the last couple of weeks as I have been in this whole process and I am unsure as to why. I really am hoping that I will be able to get it together pretty soon here and get some amazing results within the next couple of weeks. I think part of the problem is that I am having a really hard time balancing work and workout. Although I was working beforehand, I think it is because when I do go to the gym in the evenings after work, it is so busy in the gym that I feel a little intimidated by the amount of people are in there and I don't feel comfortable enough in my own skin to be around that many people. Usually I don't care, if I have a session going on because I am focussed more on the session than I am on the people around me. I am not sure how to go about getting past this and I am hoping that maybe someone can help me out in regards to getting out of my comfort zone a little bit.
Friday was payday for me, the first one from Epcor, and it was really exciting to see the amount of money I can make in a week in a career that I thought wasn't for me. I have since changed my feelings on the whole aspect of the call centre setting. I feel that I am going to excel in the job and move up and maybe branch out within the company. I am feeling much more confident that I will do well and I am very excited to see what it will bring in the future.
I was going to go to hit the gym after work but, once it was all said and done, I just didn't feel up to it. I decided to go with Jan to her appointment in Fort Saskatchewan and then when we got home, I headed out to Beaumont to a ladies night/family reunion planning with some of the women of the family. We accomplished a fair bit, and I was really glad to have gone. I am fairly interested to see how everything is going to play out come family reunion time.
Yesterday, Jan and I headed out to the farmer's market to pick up some bread from the bread guy. I really enjoy his bread because it is smaller pieces of bread, with more calories, but, it's all natural ingredients and therefore very healthy for you. Once we finished there, we went shopping. I needed to pick up some new pants for work because I only had 3 pairs that I was able to wear and when you work 5 days a week, it's kind of hard to switch up the outfits. So I bought 2 more pairs of pants, a new top, and 2 cami's to bring up my wardrobe just a little bit.
Jan had plans for the evening so she dropped me off at home and I then went upstairs to my room, and started sorting through my clothes and getting my laundry ready. I wound up getting rid of some more clothes because they are slightly too big for me and do not look good at all. I got that all under control and headed back downstairs to start supper. I had pulled out some chicken breasts and was going to do them in the oven with some mushroom soup but, we didn't have the soup. I checked out the shelves downstairs and there was a bottle of alfredo sauce. I was a little unsure how it was going to work with the chicken, however, I used it anyways and wound up sprinkling a bunch of mushrooms in the sauce as well. I made steamed carrots and a sweet potato and settled down to eat. It was fantastic! I was really impressed that I was able to come up with something like that, considering the cooking experience that I have.
This morning I was awake at 9am and I immediately came downstairs to do my weigh in. I was not looking forward to it because of the fact that I have basically missed 4 days within the last week of cardio and also the fact that I did eat out 2 times as well. No, it was definitely not healthy choices either, but, I don't do it often so I figured I would be ok. Anyways, I got on the scale and even though I was a little skeptical, it really wasn't that bad. I gained 1lb, bringing my weight back up to 200lbs, a total weight loss of 64lbs. It is ok though, for the bad choices that I made last week, I could have gone up quite a bit.
I have decided today that I am not going to the gym. I have done my stretches, and I also held the plank for 32.75 seconds. My thought is that for the next week, no elevators, and no escalators and then hit the gym right after work every day. This way, I am getting a little bit of cardio in, in the mornings and also getting my workout in the evening as well. I just have to make myself get back into a different but effective routine again. That and watch my portioning more carefully and monitor calorie intake as well.
So that is it for this weeks blog. I know it's a long one, and I am surprised that I did have so much to say. I have decided that I will continue to post the blogs, per normal, because the way that my memory works, it's not a very good scenario.
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